she

she tried to hold it back
you could see it on her face
trying to beat the cheaters in their own race.
hiding her eyes to protect her from the rays.
he always induced this drug binge craze
one by one the tears fell down
and dissolved before they ever hit the ground
its burning up in this violent world to which shes bound
try to get free or even found
but only ends in failure.
she drinks too much and swears like a sailor.
dissatisfaction drips from her pores
she knew she was better than those low life whores
but still he chose to ignore
her feeble attempts for his love
and still he leaves
and weaves his way deeper into her liver
she tries to fight back but only utters a quiver
she cant even begin to deliver the words that echo in her head
her soul cant soar
heavier than lead.
she always needs more to escape from her head
so she lies a little more and wishes to be dead.
how small we are all
she stated with smirk
smaller than the molecules in your back yards dirt.
so pointless
way too much stress
why does everybody have to try and impress
the object of her affection.
she knew she could be sweeter than any confection.
she knew she could teach him any lesson.
she'd taught herself too.
shes grown up so much
but he still wont touch
even the clothes on her back.
but what did she lack?
it was hard to love herself too.