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she tried to hold it back
you could see it on her face
trying to beat the cheaters in their own race
hiding her eyes to protect her from the rays
he always induced this drug binge craze.
one by one the tears fall down
and dissolve before they even hit the ground
theyre burning up in this world
to which shes bound
try to get free
or even found
but it only ends in failure
she drinks too much and swears like a sailor
dissatisfaction drips from her pores
she knew she was still better than those low life whores
but he still chooses to ignore
her feeble attempts for his love
and still he leaves
and weaves his way deeper into her liver
she tried to fight back but only uttered a quiver
she cant even begin to deliver
the words that echo in her head.
her soul couldnt soar, heavier than lead
she always needed more to escape from her head
so she lies some more
and wishes to be dead.
how small are we?
she asked with a smirk
smaller than the molecules in your front yard's dirt.
so pointless.
too much stress.
why does everybody have to try to impress the only object of her affection?
she knew he could be sweeter than any confection.
she knew that they could exchange life lessons
she'd tought herself too.
shes grown up so much
but still he wont touch
even the clothes on her back
but what did she lack?
it was hard to love herself too.